I recently renewed my account on my website’s host.

As far as the blog (now renamed to “Notes”) is concerned, I am typically undecided on why and what I should write.  Sometimes I’m afraid that writing something will be giving away unnecessary information — like things I’m not proud of, or ones I wouldn’t want to brag about.  Other times I feel obliged to do more research before theorizing about a subject, and it makes me wonder if the blog post is worth the time.  Also, disclosing my point-of-view on certain issues can be stressful.  I know that these thoughts go through many a blogger’s mind.  In my case, they’re causing a deadlock and a handful of unpublished drafts.

When I was younger, and before blogging platforms became so widely available, I used to write for myself.  Writing was my tactic to calm down and clear my mind.  Naturally, I didn’t hold back on any thoughts and feelings.  Some turned out to be acceptable works of prose and poetry (yes, poetry) and inevitably, others were purely idiotic, FLOABE¹.  I like to go back to that, in spite of some of the above-mentioned feelings which I will try to ignore.  (It’s not easy, I’m like this close to saving this post to drafts that won’t get published.)

You can’t avoid becoming self-conscious when writing for an audience.  However, the constant evaluation of yourself from the reader’s point of view, can lead to becoming more self-ware — and that’s a good thing. 

I’ll stop here.  Hopefully, the ice will have been broken next time I’m back.

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1 For Lack Of A Better Expression